I luv u daddy May 23, 2009

Gw pernah membuat mobil kakak gw nyerempet mobil tetangga beberapa blok dari rumah gw (well i know, gw gak pernah bisa bawa mobil dengan baik dan benar). Akibatnya adalah mobil kakak gw bempernya penyok dan mobil tetangga kebaret cukup panjang (kira2 30 cm). Tibalah waktu untuk gw melakukan pengakuan dosa ke ayah gw…

Gw: Pa, kakak bikin mobil abang nyerempet mobil tetangga blok O, blablabla (gw ceritain detailnya dg sangat takut)

Papa: Iya, ya udah gak masalah, kita ganti aja biayanya. Ini namanya rezeki orang bengkel. Kalo gak ada yg nyerempet2 gitu kan orang bengkel jg gak dapet pemasukan

Gw: makasih pa:’) ….. (gak bisa ngomong apa2 lagi)

I luv u Daddy…..

cheers,

ade

wish list January 7, 2009

Inspired by one of my good friend (ulli, she’s a blogger too, come visit her at here!), i’ll put my own 2009 wish list. I never do resolution, actually i set resolution once at 2007, it was having nicole scherzinger’s body by exercising at gym 3 times a week, but i don’t think her body is really that good then……… okay! i didn’t continue my gym class, i ate a lot and i love it and i don’t even seem to reduce it, i admit it!

My wish list is personal, my own selfishness. I do really wish for world peace, a better environment, poverty reducement, a better education, a good trasportation system, a better political and economical climate, good health services, u name it, anything that obviously being the concern for us as indonesian people. But this is my blog, i can write anything. In fact, i’m willing to write some of my apprehension on child education, everything about kids makes my heart beats faster specially those unfortunate one. Yep, i’ll do it later.

So, here we go…

1.  Having my DDS (Doctor of Dental Surgeon = drg.) title. means finishing my clinic term, means finishing all my study in FKG, means the freedom, means face the reality, working world reality. At least i put it on top list even if i think it’s kinda hard to achieve it this year, but i’ll put every ounce of my energy to make it happen. Please pray for me:)

2. My boyfriend. I really hope that he could back to Indonesia this year, although it’ll happen around Sept or Oct. Aaaarggh, this year has just started but i already wish it would end soon!!hahahhaha

3. Macbook and handycam. Okay, i don’t know the rule, am i suppose to separate between this two things?? i meant i put it as gadget list, well, nevermind. I love to document every moment in my life or everything happens around me, so i really want a handycam, eeer the HD one… i want it badly. My reason for Macbook is quite shallow. I love macbook because it’s cool, hahahha, i mean when i use it al lounge or cafe, the back of the screen part with an apple on it (i don’t know the name) is so cool, or like Jeremy Darling said in Dirty Sexy Money (my new favorit series) it’s wet!!!!

4.  German course. I yearn to continue my german course. I stopped my lesson in my previous course by the end of 2008 for some reasons. i’m seeking for private course i guess, less energy and less money i hope…

5. Pink knife from Ace Hardware. I think i could use it for chopping dark cooking chocolate or canary or.. hmm errr… that’s all, i won’t have a heart to use for meat or garlic! Unfortunately it’s out of my budget:(

Those are my top 5 lists, can’t wait to see what will come along the way:)

cheers,

ade

choices November 17, 2008

Disalah satu scene film tahun 1995, Dangerous Minds, Michelle Pfeiffer yang berperan jadi guru satu kelas yang isinya street-wise kids nanya “what is a life?” dan salah satu muridnya jawab “life is choices”.

Gw selalu inget kalimat ini karna memang gw setuju banget. Tiap saat kita nemuin persimpangan, dari mulai bangun pagi, we make the decision whether we get up or stay at bed for a little while (mostly i choose the second one, hehe). dan bgitu terus sepanjang hari sampe kita tidur, nentuin hadap kiri, atau kanan, peluk guling atau peluk pacar (loooh???), gak deng, nauuzubillah (knock on wood) hahahahaha

Kadang persimpangan yg kita temuin bukan 2, bisa sangat banyak pilihan, atau bukan cuma sekedar yes-no question, apalagi yes-yes question (maksudnya kayak di antara 2 pilihan yg sama2 enak, misalnya papah nawarin mau dibeliin iphone atw blackberry, da*n lucky!), yang susah kalo kita mesti milih di antara dua pilihan yg sama2 gak enak. Semua keliatan abu-abu, jadi susah nentuin mana yg baik mana yang gak baik, pilihannya cuma mana yg lebih baik di antara yg gak terlalu baik.

Gak selamanya pilihan yg kita ambil itu bener, tapi kita gak pernah tau itu bener atau gak sebelum keputusannya diambil (ribet yah???). Jadi, yang penting adalah pembelajaran di balik itu smua,  never stop learning never stop improving!

Knapa gw jadi ngomongin ini yah? gw hampir hampiiiiiiiiiiir gak pernah nulis postingan yg serius, eh maksud gw bukannya smua postingan gw main2, cuma yaaaaaa yaaaaa bukan sesuatu yg serius (eh serius lagi, well, whatever!), intinya, gw sedang bingung… di antara pilihan… pilihan yang gak bisa gw ceritain…

Gw nulis ini bukan untuk mencari solusi, cuma pengen diperhatiin (halah!), gak kok, cuma pengen berbagi bagaimana gw memandang hidup.

So, what’s life for you guys??

cheers,

ade

love and me October 25, 2008

In my “about” i said that this blog is about my love life as well. I’m starting to write one. So this post will be about my love story, it’s kinda awkward actually sharing this personal story of mine, but i really want to be a little more extrovert in here. So if you guys don’t like this lame-lousy-sorta creepy kind of topic, just pass it. I totally understand:)

Well, where to start????

Gosh, I never thought it would be this hard! It just many things came to my life.. bad, good, sad, happy, joy, tears, and i don’t know where to start because i’m scared i can’t stop then…

Okay,

I’m Ade and I’m not good in love, or should i say, not lucky enough? no no, my friend (you know who you are!) told me to be more optimistic, so I’d say it just not my time yet. I always wonder to meet my “one” at a very cute circumstances like those dramas do. Such as, in a cozy lounge, i’m here, he’s there, we do our stuff but sometime our eyes bump each other. Then, we just know, realize, that it’s not a lust, it’s our moment, so he greet me, casually.. and I put a smile, a simpe smile, even my cheek start blushing….Okay, I better stop it, because the rest will be our story (and i start feeling weird of what i’ve written;p)

It’s kinda hard for me to get close with someone (boys or even girls), for me, it’s hard to trust people, not because of themselves, but it just me and what inside me. I don’t want people around me see the real me, the weak me, the unconfident me. I want to be seen as a strong young lady and always controllable.

This makes me look fake and it’s not good. I can be a very controllable girl, the most understanding one, the nicest girl ever in front of my friends, but it turns to be 180 degrees different when I be someone’s girlfriend. This happened not for no reason. I just found someone to lay on and i don’t want to be strong in front of him, I want to be a spoiled girl (on my own way), to be “undressed” . Apparently, it always didn’t work, and my boyfriend became freak out, hahaha cos suddenly his girlfriend become the next britney spears (the stress part). But, I tried my best to work on my relationship, it just… didn’t go well.

Now, I’m here, single and happy….

my closest friend, my loveable boyfriend is just my laptop:)

cheers,

ade

Am I ready to date again? August 25, 2008

The answer is YES!!

hahaha!

As always, I droped by Riska’s blog (observing my little pretty niece) and found a link about blogthings. I interested in “are you ready to date again?” and the answer is yes. It’s pretty funny since I don’t even think about having a new relationship this early. No, I’m not heartbreaking! absolutely no! I’ve passed those moments and I’m totally fine now, but it just… hmm…. I don’t know, maybe I’m not ready yet, not ready to trust someone again. So, the answer surprised me, hehe…  

There are many funny quizes in this website, I’ve tried some. I always like this kind of psychological test, sometime’s slightly same but sometime’s different. I just take it for fun, nothing personal and it’s not same as zodiac, so I think it’s okay.

Okay, now your turn to try and share in your blog guys!

Kalo mau coba klik di sini aja

 

cheers,

ade

Sariawan August 21, 2008

Kali ini gw mau berbagi sedikit ilmu yang gw dapet dari kuliah gw di FKG. Banyak orang yang sering ngalamin luka-luka putih yang perih banget di dalam mulut termasuk gw. Sebenernya apa sih itu? kita sering sebut itu sariawan. Kalau dalam ilmu kedokteran gigi ada istilah tersendiri untuk penyakit tersebut, tapi saat ini, anggap aja namanya sariawan. Oke, sariawan yang mau gw bahas yang bentuknya bulet-bulet, putih, dan agak ceruk ke dalam. Kalo ditanya penyebab sariawan jenis ini, ada banyak jawabannya karena sangat tergantung dari masing-masing orang. Kalo gw, penyebabnya itu  anemia karena gw biasanya sariawan setelah “dapet”. Penyebabnya yang lain bisa karena stress, genetis, infeksi, kelainan imunologis, kelainan pencernaan, kelainan hormon, dll. Karakteristik dari sariawan jenis ini yaitu selain dari bentuknya yang udah gw sebut sebelumnya, sariawan ini juga muncul tiba-tiba, gak kegigit, gak kesodok sikat gigi, yah timbul gitu aja. Tapi biasanya intervalnya tertentu atau muncul sesuai dengan penyebabnya. Sariawan ini seringnya dialamin sama anak-anak atau usia dewasa muda.

Kalau ditanya obatnya apa, bisa dibilang gak ada obatnya, karena ini jenis penyakit kronik, obat-obat yang beredar di pasaran cuma untuk ngilangin sariawan ini aja tapi sewaktu-waktu bisa muncul kapan aja kalo faktor penyebabnya gak diilangin atau dihindari.

Nah, yang saat ini gw rasain adalah sariawan yang penyebabnya itu karena luka kesodok sikat gigi plus karena makan lays dengan rakusnya. Gusi belakang gw yang jadi korban keganasan cara makan dan sikat gigi, and it’s freaking painful! aaarrgghhh!! Tapi, sariawan kayak gimanapun gak bisa menghentikan kemampuan makan gw yang sangat tinggi, hari ini gw tetep aja makan siang dengan hasrat tinggi dan porsi yang sangat banyak sampe cukup bikin gw hibernasi sepanjang sore. Tapi kayaknya besok sariawan gw makin parah dan gw harus makan pake bubur aja, karena mulut gw gak bisa dibuka terlalu lebar dan gigi belakang gw gak bisa dipake buat ngunyah karena bakal nabrak sariawan-sariawan gw yang bejibun itu.

Doakan gw jadi agak langsing setelah penyakit sariawan menahun gw ini sembuh yaaaaa…

 

Mohon koreksinya kalo ada yang salah dari penjelasan gw:)

 

cheers,

ade

Ten things about me August 12, 2008

I found something about “tag” on someone’s my space account. She is a new singer from America, her name is Cathy Nguyen.

Here are the rules:
Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird, random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose 10 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them to be tagged. 

Don’t forget to leave them a comment “You’re It!” and to read your blog. You can’t tag the person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me back let me know when you’ve posted your blog so I can see your answers.

 

Here we go…

1.       I am going to be a dentist but I feel nausea when I see blood flows. I have no phobia of blood but I don’t know why I become like that. I realized it when I was in the middle of being an assistant while a dentist was trying to pull out a tooth. I couldn’t stand that.

2.       I am so soooo sloppy, I almost drop my food or my drink every time I eat. I can’t even bring a bag of eggs while I accompany my mom having grocery shopping. If I do so, I’ll at least break one egg!

3.       I can’t watch horror movies since I don’t want to be scared at home. I am often alone at my house so it’s better not to have any imaginary creepy-spooky-images of anything in my mind

4.       I sleep better with my lovely-hunny-bunny blanket. This blanket has been with me since I was 9 years old, no wonder it has many tear

5.       My family is my very best. So, I am little sad now because we live separately. My dad and my brother live in BSD and the girls stay at Pesanggrahan. It’s all about working, nothing’s to do with any domestic problemsJ

6.       I eat cakes a lot! Specially chocolate cakes. I love it! I can eat a lot of pieces and never enough. Harvest, Dapur Coklat, Seven Grain, Cheese Cake Factory and Tee box are great!

7.       Having 12 children is my passion. Cheaper by the dozen huh?

8.       I have a superstitious that there will be no goal in a football match that I watch. Because I almost never see a goal, except the slow motion one that have been replayed

9.       I can play a song that I like thousands times on my itunes or my phone until I get sick and never play that song again. For now, since last Thursday, I’ve been playing Lucky from Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat 80 times and I don’t seem to stop listening that song soon

10.   I love the smell of rain when fall to the soil. It’s so fresh and bring my high school memory. Love it love it love!

  And people whom I want to share are…

1.       Lulu. She is a good friend of mine. Her life is like a novel, maybe I suggest her to write a biography later. I know her very well but I just want to know more about her now since we haven’t got together for such a long time.

2.       Masita. She has a blog and I think she’ll like this tag.

3.       Agnes. She’s a very nice friend but unfortunately we rarely spend times together.

4.       Sarah. She’s one of my good friends as well. But I think she was little introvert with me at high school, so I am willing to be acquainted with her more.

5.       Riska. She is really a dear friend and a great mother too. My relationship with her was quite uncomfortable, more or less, it was a misunderstanding. But we become close after graduated. I wish to know more about her life now as a wife, as a mom, as the way she is now.

6.       Mbak Unik. She will become part of my family so I really want to get closer with her. But unfortunately, she rarely online.

7.       Arie. She is so unique, she has her own contemplation and I would like to know her ten things

8.       Nisa. She is online as often as I am, I think this tag is good for spending her time waiting her Oncin to come

9.       Ulli. She has a blog and I like the way she write. I used to know her as a very good friend, she can be very joyful and sensitive as well. But as far as I know, she is very supportive and truthful.

10.   Friends, whoever you are! Yes, I want to know 10 things about your random things, I really do!

 

 

 Cheers,

ade

 

 

 

silly things happen August 11, 2008

Kejadian ini terjadi waktu beberapa minggu yang lalu, atau sekitar 1 minggu setelah suatu hari-yang-mana-gak-mau-gw-inget-lagi-tapi-selalu-keinget-untungnya-udah-gak-terlalu-dipikirin. Oke, situasinya adalah di dalam mobil, jam 7 pagi, di lapangan parkir kampus tercinta. Gw baru sampe di kampus, asisten transportasi udah kongkow2 di pos satpam, dan gw masih dalam keadaan gundah-gulana. Entah gimana cerita awal mulanya, yang gw inget, gw nangis sejadi-jadinya, sekeras-kerasnya, sepuas-puasnya (yeah, i know it’s kinda creepy but helloooooow?? i was brokenhearted!). So, when i’d cried out loud dengan sepenuh jiwa raga, telp gw bunyi (what??!!). My patient called me..

Pasien (P): halo, dokter?

Ade (A): iya, ada apa xxx (gw ganti nama pasien gw untuk melindungi identitas diri dia)? -mengatur nafas baik2-

P: Nanti siang saya ke sana ya dok?

A: iya (mengontrol suara lebih stabil…)

P: Ini dok, gigi belakang saya sakit, kemaren tiba2 patah, kenapa ya dok?

A: -diem-

A: -diem-

A: kok bisa yah? ya udah nanti gw liat dulu

-jawaban bodoh, gw yakin ekspektasi pasien gw lebih dari itu, but hey?? as i said, i was brokenhearted and i had just cried everything out loud! how could i think about a broken tooth when my heart was broken as well??!!!-

Seandainya gw juga bisa kayak pasien gw, pagi-pagi nelpon seorang dokter…

Ade (A): Halo dok?

Dokter (D): iya, ada apa?

A: saya baru patah hati dok, kira2 kenapa yah?

D: ????

A: truss gimana dok? bisa ditanam pasak aja agar lebih kuat menahan problems load?

D: ????

A: truss dipasang jacket untuk mengembalikan fungsi dan estetis

D: tut tut tut tut…….

A: ???? aaaaaaaarrrgghhh!!!

Siangnya gw harus menghadapi pasien gw itu dan sebagai seorang (calon) dokter, gw gak mungkin menunjukkan emosi di depan pasien gw. Gw dituntut harus selalu tenang dan stabil. Aneh kan kalo kita masuk ke ruang dokter, truss dokternya curhat dan nangis-nangis, “kamu, tau semua laki-laki itu berengsek! berani-beraninya niggalin saya gitu aja! saya capek hidup seperti ini, saya mau ke surghaaa.. aaaah!!” dan mungkin kalo boleh ngambil quote dari dei a.k.a ardiani luki pratiwi, gw akan bilang “santai kayak di pantai dok!” atau quote dari oncinnya nisa, “asik kayak di tasik dok!”, atau quote salah satu merk minuman kesehatan terkenal yang selalu memasang miss tercantik seluruh dunia, “healthy inside, fresh outside” (oke, gw tau semakin gak ada hubungannya…). Back to the topic, lalu gw melatih kemampuan akting gw, gw harus membuat pasien gw ngira kalo gw menempatkan masalah dia jadi masalah terpenting yang gw hadapin, we have to give our best for each patient. Even i kept asking WHY inside but my hands was still doing their job nicely:) Thank to the mask that covers 2/3 of my face!

cheers,

ade

lucky August 7, 2008

…I’m lucky to have been where I have been..

Jason Mraz’s song (feat. Colbie Calliat) is keeping playing in my head (thank to arie for recommending me this song). The song is so sweet and nice-rewindable:) but i like the cover version one by AJ Rafael and Cathy Nguyen (It might be seen on Youtube). The song becomes very funny and joyfull as if u can feel the love spread. Yeah, actually this is a happy song but I don’t know why Jason Mraz sings it tragically (well, I know I overreacted it, nevermind!).

Lately, I keep thanking to God for what I have been through. I learn a lot, lot, n lots of more. I’m happy I can see everything by the other side now, no more tears in the middle of the night, and no more regret. I’m so thankfull:)  When I realize what all those meant, i could hold my head up high and face it. que sera sera….

I’m sick being a machine, doing what people want me to do, drive by someone else for the sake of his good, uuugh, i finally passed those circumstances. Now, I’m playing my role again as I really am, not as what other people’s want.

I’m lucky to be who I am

I’m lucky to be whom I’m with

my family, my friends…

no one can ever make me down!

cheers,

ade